3/5/2022 A.

Sadly, I realized my Descended Master soulmate has been singing me the song "Ghost Requiem" by Delerium every day for a week now, and I have lost some of my emotional ties with hir slowly through this process- even though I keep thinking about hir.

You have to understand that I don't want to let go of hir, but here are lyrics pleading for me to do so, and ey wants me to recognize this message right now:


You were once a strange addiction.

Hit and run much greater than fiction.

Thought I buried you.


Beyond matter, beyond time.

I believed that you are mine.

How many times before

have you walked through my door?

Just to leave me.

Lust to leave me

once more.


The ghost that feeds on your heart has won.

I must stop loving you.

That thief has taken your soul and run.

I must stop loving you.


This lifetime.


Was it daddys' cruel distracted shadow?

or mamas' quiet remorse.

Lead you on this bramble

path you follow.

Made you bet on the wrong horse.


The ghost that feeds on your heart has won.

Can I stop loving you?

That thief has stolen your soul and run.

I must stop loving you.


Yes, here we are.

It's a force we can't conceal.

A magnet star

being pulled by fortunes' wheel.


You set a match to my house

burned down.

I gladly drown.

I was alive again.

you were my oxygen.


The ghost that feeds on your heart has won.

I must stop loving you.

That thief has stolen your soul and run.

Can I stop loving you?


I must stop loving you (x2)


Can I stop loving you (x3)?


Maybe next time we'll get it right.


-I know for a fact that ey is asking this of me for my own good in this life- so that I might find some happiness, and not for hir own purposes, because I asked Israfil directly about this disturbing request, and ey said so, which just makes me love hir all the more... but I'll try to let go anyway.


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